The reasons to be dead.....!

What you say doesn't apply to me,
Because you don't know how I feel,
In this state that I don't want to be,
Trapped in this ordeal,
Its like a pain you can't imagine,
Its a wound that doesn't heal,
Its a wrong that has no correction,
For all feelings I conceal,
Its like a knife in my back,
Stuck there permanently,
But its the strength I lack,
To pull it out completely,
Leave me alone,
Let my hands hold my head,
Let me try to find on my own,
The reasons for wanting to be dead.....!